Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Great On Paper

For the past month, I was in pursuit of this guy I met online who lives in Kentucky. I took the leap of faith and went on vacation to visit him in Kentucky.

He's a wonderful, caring guy, and before I came out there, he was perfect. That's the thing about not meeting someone in the flesh: you never know what little intricacies come up that you're not prepared for. Physically, he was everything I thought he'd be. But once I got down to the finer details of his life, the more I questioned myself and my decision. A couple of weeks after I came home and stopped reeling from the rush of attention I got from him, I realized that he was great on paper, but he's not the guy I could see myself spending the rest of my life with. I was not ready to make even the small sacrifices for him (like sacrificing a little bit of sleep so that I'd be able to talk to him on the phone when he got off of work, or just making the time to text him a little more often like I used to), and that wasn't fair to him.

I realize that I just pulled the same excuse that The Man With The Broken Watch gave me, I could do better than that excuse, but there is a certain validity to it.

It makes me wonder, though, is everyone great on paper until you get to know the real them?
In that case, does that mean I'm just too picky or that I know what I want and am not willing to sacrifice? Maybe a little of both? Definitely a little of both.